I’ll pull you out through the space between the bars - admit that you’re dirty, the world is all yours.

Epon scolded me last night.  “I feel guilty when I go to your wordpress and see all these comments going ‘AJA WHERE ARE YOU’ when you are right here!”   I was like, But I haven’t gone anywhere! and she was like, but you haven’t updated! and I was like, I have nothing to say!

And I still don’t think I have anything to say.  But it seems Epon has made me her slave, so I suppose I will update.

I made a list of things I wanted to talk about on this post so that I could actually have things to say. Because really, honestly the only time I ever get the urge to update lately is when the only thing, I swear, that I want to say is BUMP OF CHICKEN BUMP OF CHICKEN OH MY GOD I LOVE YOU BUMP OF CHICKEN. So I figured I would get that out of the way first.

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TIL I STRIKE!

I should be making some official post about how I’ve moved - oh and I really need to update my LJ to state as much, oops -

but right now, typically, the only thing on my mind is how amazing Gankutsuou is. SO AMAZING.

It’s one of the most visually stunning things I’ve ever seen:

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so tonight i’ll sing a song for all my friends

ways in which i am cheating my livejournal ban:
- continuing to use semagic to write entries in because it’s endlessly better than a browser script of any variety
- answering people when they ask stupid questions on rackets, it’s like i just can’t stop myself even though i handed the group over to Wonapalei and company. :/
- uploading pictures to my picture account, because Semagic makes that easier than anything else on earth. And someone told me it would just be depriving LJ of bandwidth because I’d only be hotlinking from other sites anyway.
- RSS feeding ljs even though this is still confusing and scary, and even though commenting is out.

I think I forced myself to leave LJ because I needed a disconnect and I wanted one. And now I have one. It is making me restless and fidgety. To say that I am feeling avoidant is a major, major understatement - I have 59 unanswered emails in my inbox and at least 3 communit - no, 4 - fandom projects i’m deliberately hiding from.

This all looks, on the surface, like so much immaturity and emotional distress. I know that. But it’s not. It’s turbulence, rather - a change happening inside me for once rather than being done to me. At some point this will all straighten itself out and I will know where to go from here, and what I want.

In the meantime, PICSPAM :D.

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