DON’T PRETEND LIKE YOU’RE NOT INTRIGUED.

L

(turning comments off bc you should be flailing at her not me omg omg IT’S NOT A TAIL. DE-EVOLVING. EXPERIENCING WHAT IT’S LIKE TO BE A MONKEY. JUST. CRYING.)

p.s. she says she might do more of these omg that would make my life. PLEASE REVIEW AND ENCOURAGE HER.

QUERY OR FIC.

Last month I said that I’d give anyone who correctly guessed the fic I wrote for H/D holidays a reward: they could pick between a drabble of any fandom of their choice, or ask me 5 questions about any of my fics.

Then the guessing started and everything got messy because all the people who guessed correctly were like “but i don’t want to officially guess” and some of them I don’t know so I couldn’t be like “no it’s okay!” and some of them guessed but already had hints so it didn’t really count, and basically the whole thing was a wash and I am having trouble enforcing this reward system.

So let’s just say, for my own personal edification, that this is a QUERY OR FIC post for all comers:

you can either ask me 5 questions about any of my fics, or prompt me for 100 words in the fandom/pairing of your choice.

(if i don’t know the fandom i’ll look at you funny, but feel free to try me anyway.)

my modus operandi is amalgam.

Today I bought this shirt. This is either totally lame or totally awesome. It’s probably a bit of both, just like me.

There was nothing to do at work today; everyone who needs to be there was gone and the rest of us had little to do. I installed 13 Firefox skins on my computer, haha, and kept going back and forth between them. Do I want Black Japan or Pimpzilla. The choices in my life are so difficult.

This morning when my alarm clock went off to the strains of Super Junior, I wondered what day it was and realized with a mild shock that it was in fact the last day of the year. It’s weird, normally I at least get a little nostalgic at some point during the holidays; and you’d think since this has been my happiest year in a long time I’d've been more so – but no, I’m just kind of in this mode where I’m thinking, ‘well, okay, come on, 2008, let’s get on with it.’

Tonight I am ringing in the new year by myself, curled up on the couch with Chinese food, Starbucks ice cream, a stack of dvds, and my laptop. I’m cozy and comfy, and it dawned on me suddenly, as I was driving through the rainy evening earlier listening to Fujiwara Motoo seduce me into a state of nostalgia with his voice, that I am completely content right now. This has been a quiet year, but it’s been the most monumental year for me of the 2000s in a lot of ways. This was the year I finally learned to stop looking back. This was the year I finally learned to stop living with one eye over my shoulder and one foot poised to go down some other path. This was the year I finally decided that if I wasn’t going to show myself any respect then I’d never be able to ask it from anyone else. This was the year I finally let myself want something. This was the year I finally went out and got what I fucking wanted for myself.

It was also the year I burned a t-shirt and left livejournal forever and came back 3 months later with my tail between my legs, but you know what? Even the act of going “fuck this, I’m out of here” was empowering on a fundamental level for me. I’m not the same person I was when I left. And now I can honestly say that I’ve done one truly stupid no-holds-barred embarrassing thing on video that I will never live down. Which, I mean. There are plenty of more embarrassing things I could have done on video. Let the lesson of this new year be that we should all count ourselves lucky for that.

Here is my year, in fandoms.

January:

look, just take the fic and don’t say a word, okay? okay.

Oh hell, like i really needed the excuse to update.

A)

WE’RE BACK!

And better than ever. This round of the BBB is the last, and we’re planning all kinds of ways for bystanders, readers, artists and fans to participate throughout the next 6 months, so I really hope you guys will follow that link, check out the forums, and join us for the ride. ♥ We’re all really excited and hope you will be too.

B) Okay, so, I wasn’t going to out myself, and then I was, and then I wasn’t, and then I was, and basically having clumsily stumbled through every possible aspect of sockpuppetry the same way I have clumsily stumbled through every possible aspect of leaving/not-leaving/leaving livejournal, I just wanted to officially swing back to the “outed” side of the pendulum, and let you guys know that I kind of wrote a Death Note AU Light/L fic, which is stupid and ridiculous and plebey and implausible and did I mention ridiculous, which basically means it’s JUST LIKE CANON, haha. but it’s also funnily enough the longest thing i’ve ever actually finished, and people seem to like it, and I love my ridiculously long plebefic, and my sockpuppet lj is awesome, okay, so pardon my blatant hypocrisy long enough to see that when you have the opportunity to post ~*epic*~ fic under a name like , trivial concerns like the fact you’ve officially left LJ cease to matter.

Anyway, the fic is called A Red Hot Gad O’Iron “A Tithe to Hell” and it is Epon’s fic because she made me write it, basically, and all parts are posted there on that LJ, and I mostly wanted to tell you guys so I could show off my beautiful beautiful fanart by *____* – and also by the lovely . Both linked in the body of the fic, but I will link them here too, because I am shameless and GOSH I LOVE FANART.

* Art by Quaedam: the coppery rich taste of benediction and forgiveness
* Art by Marokura: eyes wide, eyes open.

C) God, I suck at not being here. I miss you guys. HEY, HEY, WHILE I’M HERE, I THINK YOU SHOULD ALL COMMENT AND GIVE ME AN EXCUSE TO COMMENT, AND THEN EDIT MY COMMENT, AND THEN EDIT MY COMMENT SOME MORE. YEAH!

D) Did I mention I missed you guys? Happy Black Friday, everybody!

Protected: i love how I am acting like this is NEWS.

T

but what are your thoughts on ….yuuri/wolfram? (ha. GOTCHA.)

ggrasshopper sent me off to AarinFantasy tonight in search for Death Note doujinshi.

For some reason I always forget that AF has a huge “YAOI” sign on it so every time I go there I’m always kinda like

D

I actually started shipping Takeshi Obata and Takeshi Konomi somewhere during the umpteenth reference to how good L & Raito were at tennis. The idea of the two Takeshis being total fanboys of each other, taking each other out for coffee and squealing like girls over each other’s latest preview issue is the most delightful thing that’s happened to me today.

I’m sorry I can’t shut up about this yet. My angst.

After begging, pleading for the last four years for this, I HAVE BEEN WISHING SO HARD FOR THIS FOR FOUR YEARS. This is the one thing that I have posted about repeatedly on the support forums asking LJ to do. Begging.

and now, now, now after i’ve made the decision to cut my friends list and go underground,

LJ has finally increased the friending limit.

I can’t actually believe this. I fucking wished for this for so long, and I get it the week after it no longer matters.

This…. well. Maybe it changes everything? My goal for so long has just been to friend back everyone who friends me, and then just lock my journal completely. That has been my ideal livejournal scenario FOR SO LONG. God. Years.

um. I don’t know what to do now?

But while I’m talking about Livejournal, I can’t not mention this. from the same news entry above.

LiveJournal’s First Non-Fiction Essay Contest

Today,we’re kicking off our very first writing contest ever, and the theme iscentered around National Women’s History Month. We’re looking forsubmissions of no more than 1500 words, on the topic of how women’sissues and/or something in women’s history has affected you personally.

We’llhave two grand prize winners: one selected by us, and one selected bythe community from a list of finalists. Each winner will receive a $500prize, and the right to choose a charity (from a list we provide) toreceive another $500 prize.

Find out more information, including the official rules, at .(Unfortunately, due to the laws surrounding contests like this, our lawyers swear we have to limit participation to US residents only. And,for some reason, you can’t play if you live in Arizona. We know itsucks. We’re really sorry.)

You guys. Go forth and enter.